Neurotic Day

I’ve discovered that in order to have a Renewal Day, allowing myself to have a Neurotic Day the day before is very effective.

Neurotic Day -- the day following four or five days of listening to other voices out in the world, while working to contribute to the common good;

Involves self-doubt, fatigue, lack of direction

Looks like laziness, wandering around

Feels like discontentment, fear, dissatisfaction, discouragement

Eventually, my own voice rises to the top of the clamoring opinions, theories well researched, and asinine assertions made over wireless connections, both in person and via devices.

Then I’m ready to play.

Rather than fight the neurotic day, now I plan it. The less I resist this day, the easier I move through it. I’m not shoulding myself along the way. If anything, I’m checking things off a list! Don’t we love to feel productive? Stare at the wall for an hour. Check. Question my life’s path. Check.

All of this can be accomplished in one day, rather than being stretched out over what becomes a typical weekend of two, watered-down, days off.

Next month, the neurotic day and vacation.